Monthly Archives: May 2011


I’ve been feeling rather down lately. Haven’t been to school as much as I should have. Instead I call in sick, get to school for a few classes and then I panic and I go home.

I actually have a perscription for anti-anxiety pills, but I scared to death by them. When the Doc handed me the perscription, he told me to be careful since these were some of the most addictive pills in the world. I seem to be one of those persons who gets addicted really easily, hence me being so scared. My dad thinks we should get them just so that I won’t have panicattacks that lasts for hours, but I would, honestly, rather deal with the anxiety, than another addiction.

Right now I should be getting ready for school, but all I want to do is sleep and read and do something unrelated to school. Even though there’s only 16 days left until graduation, I can’t seem to find any strength for these last two weeks. I have essays with missed deadlines that has to get written and handed in, but my concentration is down below 0 at the moment.

At least I’ve decided on going in to the library today. I always seem to be more concentrated there then here at home, where there are far too many distractions playing mindgames with me. Everything just feels like it’s so wrong, the weird feeling won’t move from my stomach.

My head is just filled with chaos and I don’t seem to have the ability to sort it all out.

Love & Blue suspenders //

– H


Things I love Thursday <3


At a blog that I sometimes pop into, Galadarling, there is this thing that’s called Things I love Thursday. And today I love…

– Reading an House of Night book far too quickly for my own good.

– Listening to this song.

– Watching TV-shows online.

– Finding out that my hair has grown out to be 90 cm/ 35 inches.

– Dutchbraiding my hair before bed and getting braidwaves when I wake up.

– Getting a day of school.

– Finding pretty quotes.

– Eating baked potatoes.

– Getting the most perfect shoes to run around in this summer.

– Listening to Frank Sinatra while riding my bike.

Lush‘s American Cream conditioner, Seanik shampoo bar, Lemony Flutter cuticle butter, You snap the whip! –    and Aqua Mirabilis budy butters etc. etc.

– Malmö International Tattoo, and that I’m going to be living with RSNCB in the same city I go to school in starting today ending sunday.

– Taking walks.

– Having lunch with my mother.

– The dress I got for the graduate-dinner at school next week.

– MACs Kissable Lipcolour in Vanity Fair and Ruby Woo lipstick.

– Hot chocolate.

– Books! Forever books…

Love & Blue suspenders//

– H