Monthly Archives: January 2011

Webdesign and psychiatrists

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So, maybe school and I go together sometimes. Tuesday-mornings are not one of those times..

I have webdesign, which could be one of the ,ost meaningless classes a girl could have. I’ve learned stuff I could have learned of the internet, or from my friends. And since there’s always someone who’s too lazy to actually show up, most of the lesson ends up going through last weeks lesson, making all of us, if possible, more bored.

This is sad, ’cause it could have been a really interesting class. Now, not so much…

Yesterday I was free from school, which ended up with me missing a meeting with the board of one of the marching bands that I’m in. Not much of loss, since nothing’s actually up to us (the boardmembers). If the conductor doesn’t want to do something, it won’t. And that’s accepted, it’s just that I feel like we could accomplish so much, if only we were given the chance…

I might do a post on the depression later, depending on how I feel. Mom might be calling a psychiatrist later today, I’m a bit nervous about talking to someone I’ve never met. It feels like he/she will want to start digging deep at once. I have no problem with talking about it, it’s just that this would be agnolishing that there is a problem to be dealt with. Meh, to thing possitivly, maybe I can get some help with my psycology homework while I’m in session ^^ 

Love and Blue suspenders//

– H

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Alright, I have to admit. My school might not be that perfect (for me), but my teachers certainly are.

Fridays are probably my best, and worst, day of the week. I start at 9.15, end my first class at 10.20 and then I don’t have anything to do until 14.20, which kind of sucks..

But today, since we have group-projects in my first class, history, and also since I have the same teacher in both psycology and history, we desided to mix and match. So, we had psycology during history, and free period during the actual psycology class, that being code for “Go home and do something with your lives, kids”

Sometimes I love my teachers!! 🙂

Love and Blue suspenders //

– H

Some background on that please…?

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Alright, so I realised that I haven’t told you about my school that much.

I go to private school, but here in Sweden that’s not really a big deal. Alot of people go to private school, since it’s just as free as all the other schools. My school just happens to be one of the schools that are amongst the best in around here. That meaning that it’s small, with great teachers and amazing schoolspirit.

 

I bet you’re thinking, “Dude, what in the world are you complaining about?”

I am complaining about the fact that since my school is small, I can’t get in all the stuff I would like too study. I only had a semester of music. I can’t studie higher levels of philosofy and history.

And at my school, good isn’t good. Best is good, amazing is best, and, well, frankly, I chose wrong. I belong in a upper secondary school that gives me a musicprogram.

If I could go back in time and tell myself two things, it would be this…

“Hunny, no matter how hard you fall, look at the other options of schools out there. You’re gonna get to know some pretty awesome people and you’ll regret not looking outside the box that is Malmö”

the second thing would basically be to tell myself to stop eating all that sugar. Mainly because I know exactly when it started, and also because it hasn’t done me any good yet…

 

Love and Blue suspenders //

– H

School and stuff

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I started school last week. I went monday and tuesday, then I snapped… I called in sick the rest of the days and just kinda didn’t really feel anything special about it. Then I was “sick” monday this week, and went to school yesterday. But not today, well I’m going to go to my “Law and Order”class, but that’s only because I promised a friend of mine that I would show up…

 

I don’t know why I act like this, I suppose I just reallly don’t want to go to school. I don’t feel like it, and I don’t wanna!

 

Love and Blue suspenders //

– H

Selfish much?

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I have this strong belief in being selfish. Isn’t there a point in doing what you want to do in the exact moment you want to do it..?

 

I, myself, don’t think that I’m selfish enough. I could do so many more things only because I want to. I don’t, but sometimes I wonder what would happen if I did. Would my friends leave, or would they think I was better for it? What would my parents think?

 

Alot of people say that doing what you want isn’t selfish. I say it is. But I won’t condemn the ones who are strong enough to look to themselves for changes, strength and beauty. They are my rolemodels, the ones that I look to for changes, strength and beauty. And I sincerely hope that I’m on the right path to becoming more selfish.

 

Love and Blue suspenders//

– H